I thought I had the worst day of my life yesterday but today topped it! Advisors are so important in your grad school career and choosing who you work for can make your life heaven or hell. You build up a certain relationship with your advisor, ohhh... why and I trying to philosophize on that when all I want to say is that I don't seem to be getting along with my advisor these days and it is so DAMN FRUSTRATING! Have I lost the ability to interact with her during the year she was away on her sabbatical? Why do I feel she's talking down at me? Why do I feel so sensitive? Because I spent the last 4 years working on this project and she changes it with a flick of her finger - we'll include this, we'll throw away the rest, etc. Because I've put so much passion, so much thought, so much work, such long hours, into getting it all done, that throwing half of it away doesn't make sense to me! Why didn't we decide to throw is away a year ago? I would be so much further along to finishing my thesis if I'd had 10,000 spectra! Gosh, I'm feeling miserable! I hate it all! I hate this thesis! I don't want to do it. Not this way. Not being told what to do! Gosh... I ... am ... so ... upset... I've been crying since 4:30 pm today and I still can't quite figure out why I'm crying... I am totally having a nervous breakdown! Oh, the joys of grad school!